I Have Failed

So dark the fate that awaits me

I have seen, so much I was blind

Holds in my heart to never set free

So much for a truth I never wanted to find

And now, I seek no happiness

I seek no power over that heart of yours

I just wanted to escape that emptiness

I want my death, break through hell's doors

Pain and agony, in my heart fill and form

Aches so much, demolishes all what is dear

Broken and shattered,lost within the storm

Being burned alive, must be better than here

Weightless the trouble of the universe against mine

So twisted and lifeless the path,wrecked and derailed

Opposing my existence, world, reasons and misfortune align

Take me away Lord, I have failed

The Warrior Prayer!!!

Lord of all, hear my call, my sword is by my side.

I seek a life of honor, free from all false pride.

I ask for might, with no remorse nor despair.

I crave knowledge, with the power to understand and bare.

I shall then prevail, I shall then ride with victory as my trail.

Cover me with death if I should ever let you down or fail.

The Ravings Of A Madman : Part 2 "A B-Day Special"

So again with the mockery deed I begin, a storm of thoughts that somewhat unusual but however real life abiding. The ravings are not going to stop, nor as I; I 'll keep on drilling holes where it should not be drilled; cut the blinding fabric so it exists no more and reveals the true shaky structure on which humans have built their fortress of false security. So again I take you along for the ride into the lands of the illogical truth; illogical for you of course, I have made my peace with insanity long time ago.

So with Ben Franklin we begin “Neglect kills injuries, revenge increases them”, I know Ben has been dead for quite sometime now – couple of centuries in fact- and it is not nice to speak ill of the dead; but since Ben has decided to enlighten us with his pearls of wisdom, I guess he had it coming. So I guess to his limited vision in the 1700's those words were true, but come in twenty first century, that is a very different story. I know that anger can consume, the need for vengeance can overpower sanity, however, with that in mind, you must know that revenge is the most powerful of all motives, and I 'm speaking here about motivation to overcome circumstances that has been preset, or prejudices if you're to call 'em that, if you can control your anger, plan your revenge, comes tomorrow and the world is yours.

I might have offended some people with the very idea of “Revenge is not a bad thing”, so let me flip the coin on both sides before dismissing the idea and consider me one of those nut jobs you see mumbling and roaming through the streets. Indeed, Anger and revenge is a double edged weapon, if used without being precocious, it can cut you as much anyone else, and it would probably would cut people that you don't intend to hurt; I guess that was Ben's vision, so he decided to advise everyone to play it safe and put the weapons down; now that I have explained the opposing idea, let me dwell on mine. It's ironic that one would think that peace would bring peace in the world of today, the time we live in suggests that peaceful and civil reactions shows a sign of weakness;and there will be always someone or some people who are ready to prey on those who prefer to avoid confrontations, who are ready to walk all over the peaceful and the weak without a flinch; it is because today's survival of the vicious rules, that it is imperative that humans should learn to sharpen their nails,and to be ready to do whatever is needed to be done to reach their peace on their own terms.

The retaliation process is somewhat of a confusing concept, and surely a large mine field that should be navigated with care to reach the destination safely. Some may define that process as inflicting harm on others, however, that not the true essence of revenge; we're not going to storm in on the “bad guys” with weapons acting up like loose cannons -I would blame action movies for putting those ideas into your head- and shoot 'em down; it is quite necessary that you would understand that revenge is a process where a victim of hostile/unjust action teach a lesson of humility to the attacker(s). Ok, I know this might be a little bit confusing, so let me explain, what I mean here that revenge does not require violence to be accomplished -although some might think it is-, but it requires that you as a victim trap the attacker into his own game, which is in itself a true irony, or poetic justice if the words would serve the situations -poetic as in it rhymes, same setup captures the original attacker(s)-.

Now that I have redefined the term and rectified common fallacies, comes the more interesting part of the issue, I have already explained why not, so now with the why phase. Let us get one thing straight, a human with self-satisfaction is a human who is capable of maintaining a fair balance within his/hers character and behavior; more specifically, the capability of harshness and forgiveness. Ok, again I make no sense ?! Well, I think that when a human is capable of anything-most of us believe that it is difficult to do that, however, I know for a fact that it exists within all of us-, it is only a question of morality and self-righteousness that dictates the proper course of action(s). Moreover, when you feel that injustice had been served to you, knowing that you can and will retaliate/get even, will ease your mind and make you relax, it is then that revenge is taken in the most cautious of ways and would bring peace to your soul.

So it looks like I 'm gonna make it about Mr. Franklin today, “A man in a passion, rides a mad horse”, looks like Ben had problem controlling a good balance between mind and heart, some would wonder what urges a guy like that to lay his “infinite” “wisdom” on us -Albert Einstein have a quote about “infinite” things, I would strongly recommend you dig it out- while his own actions are not filtered through his brain! A man in passion can act foolishly, yes I know that the major part of the human race act like morons when they are in love, but however, love , that tangling feeling in your stomach, that glowing that you see around your other half, that blackness which blinds you from the world and leaves only your loved one to see, is destined to fade out someday, perish like dust in the winds of life, unless you 're sane enough to use your brain and your heart to asses the romance.

Some people might hate me for the words I have stated above, but I know better than to live in “denial”, this is not a fairytale with a knight in a shining armor and a fair princess that is trapped in a high tower, the most funny thing about those fairytales, is that “the happily ever after” always pop ups and ends the story without showing that through; I think people when the reach the “happily ever after” part of the story, they get shocked of the story goes on and on and on .... needless to say not so much for the “happily ever after”. This is most dangerous of cons that humans get influenced by, and when life shows its true colors, it is a very rare reaction that one would understand that those were just entertainment for the young, and grow over it. I 'm not saying that love does not exist, but I 'm saying beware of the smoke and the mirror effects it brings at the beginning, those might be mistaken for the flame love, and then after sometime you wonder about those flying sparks,crave 'em, begin searching for them again possibly with another partner.

Actually, love is much much simpler than some adrenaline driven actions. In itself love between two humans can be defined as the ultimate sense of security, understanding and kindness. Let me dwell a little more on the previous statement, a long lasting love comes from the ability to trust one another with the most intimate of secrets, to know that no matter what illogical feelings/incorrect actions/irregular behaviors you have they 'll be accepted and understood by your loved one,to know that your other half will always be there to hold you when life storms in your face, that is security, understanding, and kindness that even the most of riches cannot buy you. I know that the “crazy” actions that you'll do to let your love interest how you feel are considered to be “cute”, and they do stir some feelings within him/her, but those feelings will be rarely love, compassion maybe, attention craving perhaps, but not love; that why a man in passion, SHOULD NOT ride a mad horse.

After much spilling of the most sacred and deep secrets, I shall shut my pie hole and leave you to the twisters of thoughts that roams through your mind. I shall not confirm nor deny your doubts, I shall however ask of you to reason with the storms, to wise up and see beyond the flashy exterior of life; After all, I'm still the madman who is raving all over the place.