The Ravings Of The Madman : Part 3

As storms come and go, the very idea of me leaving my words unspoken is very far fetched. So here I'm again, against all odds betting that someday, somewhere, some people would actually understand those cryptic words of mine, and then would change the world with their mind. And so without further due, I present you with the latest of my craziest thoughts and theories.

It looks like I ain't going to leave Ben Franklin to rest in peace, in his infinite wisdom the words came “After crosses and losses, men grow humbler and wiser”, Ben you're so full of it; as once you were the leader of “the free world” you should have known that it is inevitable that man wages wars to satisfy his greed, his egotistical desires, and sense of superiority.... what else are wars waged for? So what wisdom and humble are you speaking of, when a life is sold at the cheap price of one's arrogance? I can agree to the fact that the grief of the loss is the greater among its peers, but what would you know about it? It's all a game of chess to you, and ponds were lost, doesn't really matter to you as long as you can say “check mate”. All is then numbers, numbers of victories, number of losses, number of nemeses .... just numbers.

So with that into mind, we embark on the quest for finding the truth behind the words that been said. So in what sense does a man grow wiser and humbler after “crosses and losses” ? Mind you the “crosses” was paired with “losses” and not just any other word; ah, we're getting somewhere now, Ben was unaware of he was really saying, which was, if you lost a war/fight/conflict, you would grow wiser and humbler, and this is just from word association analysis. I can sense some confusion still there, so let us flip it the other way so it would be clear, if you win a war/fight/conflict, you would not care about the losses you have taken, your ego will grow, and certainly will celebrate like a crazy person; so we should only feel the regret and think about our mistakes to grow wiser if and only if we lost, does that sound right to you? Does that seem like a good logic that you should follow? .... again I'll leave you to be the judge of that.

“No one is hurt by doing the right thing”, although I don't know who is the genius that came up with that one, but I 'll have to crack a whip on his ass as well. Let us get right down to it,the first conclusion we can deduce right out of these “wise” words is that doing the right thing is easy?! I just wonder how is that possible? Doing the right thing is not as easy as it is stated above, doing good deeds -like helping an old lady to cross the street, feeding a stray hungry dog perhaps ..... etc- maybe is, but doing the right thing, that is a total different story. I can dwell here forever, but however, I can prove my point in just one question, didn't you suffer the ache of doing the right thing someday? Maybe letting a loved one go because whatever circumstances were preventing you from being together? Extended the helping hand to a friend and got screwed in the process? Had to leave your home, family and friends because your career forced it on you? Trusted someone and done right by them, and they betrayed you? ..... shall I go on really? The list is endless. It 's always easier to demolish than to build, and so we can deduce that doing the right thing – in this case, building- is hard, and is not without sacrifices, that sometime lead to pain and hurt.

To clarify more, situations where one is hurt by doing the right thing are situation where one finds himself/ herself torn between executing a self-righteous and sound moral act against following a deep and compelling desire. It is known when such conflicts arise, one wonders about the action that should be done, and becomes truly lost and confused. In such situation, only a strong person will asses the situation fairly and eliminate any emotional input into it, and decides on the action. With that being said, you have probably guessed that the quality of the morality of that person will steer the end result of that situation, and most probably not in favor of desires, it is then after the decided upon action(s) are executed, that the person in question starts dealing with the matter emotionally, and yup, you guessed right, it's time for the pain and healing process to start. At the end, being deterministic about such matters is just plain stupid, but again you already know that.

From the heart of the world, Africa, comes the proverb “A crab walks, so walks his children”. One of those mysterious, multi-meaning, and ambiguous proverbs, you know which ones I 'm talking about. So in order to get this right, we need to explore all the angels we can find on that one, so let us start by the far most obvious, heritage, elders are suppose pass their knowledge to the young so they can deal with life; hhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh ....... so now the elders know better?? Shall we state the obvious, we're all humans, mistakes were made, are being made, and will be made until the end time. Lost me? I guess what I mean here is that no one knows better, specially those that are so called “Grey-haired”-after several thousand of years, and the end result is the world we live in, yes, look around you, that's the wisdom of the elders and their work, can anyone blame me for the mockery?- with their control and their arrogance; you're cursed if you don't follow their teachings, you're damned if you try to disobey, God forbid you should have a new idea, they'll burn you at the stake. Much of a life for the young, and they wonder why creative people are such renegades!!!

Let's dig a little deeper now, another angel for the African proverb is “like father like son”, in other words, the habits, morals, behaviors ....etc are passed on from parent to child. What is your take on this one? Is it really the truth, or it is just another one of those fallacies? I know that some of our attributes must come from the environment we live in, but at the end of the day, one wonders “Am I the same man as my father? Am I more like my mother?”. Truth is some people are really flexible when it comes in terms of adapting personalities, however, this comes from idealizing the person one wants to take after, however, it has been proven through history of man that iconizing a man is just plain stupidity, because as soon as the truth is uncovered -that he or she is just a human-; the let-down is of a great effect on the idealizing person, and sometime so shocking that it provokes feelings of vengeance, that leads to the point of totally negating the previous personality. So do we imitate or innovate? Well, some of us is more the former than the latter, and some are the latter rather than the former. It is actually trying to tip the scale for one side rather than the other is the true delima, and so not all children crabs walks as their elder crabs.

“A gentle hand may lead even an elephant by a hair”, an Iranian proverb that I lasted long thinking about, does it really work? Does a gentle hand leads a nation? Or is it the better understanding, representing and honoring is the way to go? I do not know of any leader that used a gentle hand with his people, and thus I should not know about the result!! What I know is that power corrupts, demolishes the humble attributes and thrives the ego of a human. Do not tell me that integrity exists with those who have power, it simply does not add up, ask yourself this, can you resist the temptation of using all the power available to you to achieve some goal -whatever that may be-? If you answered yes, please try it out first then let me know what was the result.

I do not believe that politicians really represent us, rather than leading us. They will do some good , yes, but do they truly get to all the issues you want to get to? Do they really care about you and your family? Do they really live and suffer from the same circumstances as you ? Democracy is an illusion, autocracy is real, we still depend on the system of the one, the one that leads, the one that decides, the one who has it all, because we all believe in a savior that will free us all, and we should then follow. It is easier to blame someone for the mistakes he/she have done while taking our responsibilities, rather than each one would take a part of the process, yes it is always easier to depend than not to depend. A question for you people out there, why do you think we have a brain? Is not our responsibility to stand up for ourselves and take the lead? Aaaaaaaahhhhh, so I have hit the bull's eye now, are we really that go-able, or are we just lazy? Think about those answers, and conclude which life you're living.

It's always good to seek help, I do not deny this, but should we really take the instructions that has been given to us without questions? Can't we question the motives and hidden agendas of those who lead? And if not then why, is it because they lead? I do not believe in a “One's system”, I roam free within the darkness to find my own way to light, shouldn't you? A gentle hand does not lead an elephant by a hair, and if it does, then it should not be.

Now as I stirred the doubts again, I can leave you with the questions that really matter. You should have been answering those yourself, but as I know, humans suffer from memory-loss, and specially when it's interfering with the easy way of living. After all those questions, can you tell who is really the madman who is raving all over the place?

So.......

So winds of rage have faded away

So hatred fire has burnt me alive

So lost, feels the ultimate dismay

So sanity dies, and betrayal to thrive

So shattered, world in total disarray

So dead inside, nothing to revive

So nothing I am, worthless as you convey

So nothing but a tool, a step as you contrive

So I sold my world for a stack of hay

So I ended up with a rock bottom dive

So filled with anger, the dragon I'll slay

So I left once again, and none will survive

I Have Failed

So dark the fate that awaits me

I have seen, so much I was blind

Holds in my heart to never set free

So much for a truth I never wanted to find

And now, I seek no happiness

I seek no power over that heart of yours

I just wanted to escape that emptiness

I want my death, break through hell's doors

Pain and agony, in my heart fill and form

Aches so much, demolishes all what is dear

Broken and shattered,lost within the storm

Being burned alive, must be better than here

Weightless the trouble of the universe against mine

So twisted and lifeless the path,wrecked and derailed

Opposing my existence, world, reasons and misfortune align

Take me away Lord, I have failed

The Warrior Prayer!!!

Lord of all, hear my call, my sword is by my side.

I seek a life of honor, free from all false pride.

I ask for might, with no remorse nor despair.

I crave knowledge, with the power to understand and bare.

I shall then prevail, I shall then ride with victory as my trail.

Cover me with death if I should ever let you down or fail.

The Ravings Of A Madman : Part 2 "A B-Day Special"

So again with the mockery deed I begin, a storm of thoughts that somewhat unusual but however real life abiding. The ravings are not going to stop, nor as I; I 'll keep on drilling holes where it should not be drilled; cut the blinding fabric so it exists no more and reveals the true shaky structure on which humans have built their fortress of false security. So again I take you along for the ride into the lands of the illogical truth; illogical for you of course, I have made my peace with insanity long time ago.

So with Ben Franklin we begin “Neglect kills injuries, revenge increases them”, I know Ben has been dead for quite sometime now – couple of centuries in fact- and it is not nice to speak ill of the dead; but since Ben has decided to enlighten us with his pearls of wisdom, I guess he had it coming. So I guess to his limited vision in the 1700's those words were true, but come in twenty first century, that is a very different story. I know that anger can consume, the need for vengeance can overpower sanity, however, with that in mind, you must know that revenge is the most powerful of all motives, and I 'm speaking here about motivation to overcome circumstances that has been preset, or prejudices if you're to call 'em that, if you can control your anger, plan your revenge, comes tomorrow and the world is yours.

I might have offended some people with the very idea of “Revenge is not a bad thing”, so let me flip the coin on both sides before dismissing the idea and consider me one of those nut jobs you see mumbling and roaming through the streets. Indeed, Anger and revenge is a double edged weapon, if used without being precocious, it can cut you as much anyone else, and it would probably would cut people that you don't intend to hurt; I guess that was Ben's vision, so he decided to advise everyone to play it safe and put the weapons down; now that I have explained the opposing idea, let me dwell on mine. It's ironic that one would think that peace would bring peace in the world of today, the time we live in suggests that peaceful and civil reactions shows a sign of weakness;and there will be always someone or some people who are ready to prey on those who prefer to avoid confrontations, who are ready to walk all over the peaceful and the weak without a flinch; it is because today's survival of the vicious rules, that it is imperative that humans should learn to sharpen their nails,and to be ready to do whatever is needed to be done to reach their peace on their own terms.

The retaliation process is somewhat of a confusing concept, and surely a large mine field that should be navigated with care to reach the destination safely. Some may define that process as inflicting harm on others, however, that not the true essence of revenge; we're not going to storm in on the “bad guys” with weapons acting up like loose cannons -I would blame action movies for putting those ideas into your head- and shoot 'em down; it is quite necessary that you would understand that revenge is a process where a victim of hostile/unjust action teach a lesson of humility to the attacker(s). Ok, I know this might be a little bit confusing, so let me explain, what I mean here that revenge does not require violence to be accomplished -although some might think it is-, but it requires that you as a victim trap the attacker into his own game, which is in itself a true irony, or poetic justice if the words would serve the situations -poetic as in it rhymes, same setup captures the original attacker(s)-.

Now that I have redefined the term and rectified common fallacies, comes the more interesting part of the issue, I have already explained why not, so now with the why phase. Let us get one thing straight, a human with self-satisfaction is a human who is capable of maintaining a fair balance within his/hers character and behavior; more specifically, the capability of harshness and forgiveness. Ok, again I make no sense ?! Well, I think that when a human is capable of anything-most of us believe that it is difficult to do that, however, I know for a fact that it exists within all of us-, it is only a question of morality and self-righteousness that dictates the proper course of action(s). Moreover, when you feel that injustice had been served to you, knowing that you can and will retaliate/get even, will ease your mind and make you relax, it is then that revenge is taken in the most cautious of ways and would bring peace to your soul.

So it looks like I 'm gonna make it about Mr. Franklin today, “A man in a passion, rides a mad horse”, looks like Ben had problem controlling a good balance between mind and heart, some would wonder what urges a guy like that to lay his “infinite” “wisdom” on us -Albert Einstein have a quote about “infinite” things, I would strongly recommend you dig it out- while his own actions are not filtered through his brain! A man in passion can act foolishly, yes I know that the major part of the human race act like morons when they are in love, but however, love , that tangling feeling in your stomach, that glowing that you see around your other half, that blackness which blinds you from the world and leaves only your loved one to see, is destined to fade out someday, perish like dust in the winds of life, unless you 're sane enough to use your brain and your heart to asses the romance.

Some people might hate me for the words I have stated above, but I know better than to live in “denial”, this is not a fairytale with a knight in a shining armor and a fair princess that is trapped in a high tower, the most funny thing about those fairytales, is that “the happily ever after” always pop ups and ends the story without showing that through; I think people when the reach the “happily ever after” part of the story, they get shocked of the story goes on and on and on .... needless to say not so much for the “happily ever after”. This is most dangerous of cons that humans get influenced by, and when life shows its true colors, it is a very rare reaction that one would understand that those were just entertainment for the young, and grow over it. I 'm not saying that love does not exist, but I 'm saying beware of the smoke and the mirror effects it brings at the beginning, those might be mistaken for the flame love, and then after sometime you wonder about those flying sparks,crave 'em, begin searching for them again possibly with another partner.

Actually, love is much much simpler than some adrenaline driven actions. In itself love between two humans can be defined as the ultimate sense of security, understanding and kindness. Let me dwell a little more on the previous statement, a long lasting love comes from the ability to trust one another with the most intimate of secrets, to know that no matter what illogical feelings/incorrect actions/irregular behaviors you have they 'll be accepted and understood by your loved one,to know that your other half will always be there to hold you when life storms in your face, that is security, understanding, and kindness that even the most of riches cannot buy you. I know that the “crazy” actions that you'll do to let your love interest how you feel are considered to be “cute”, and they do stir some feelings within him/her, but those feelings will be rarely love, compassion maybe, attention craving perhaps, but not love; that why a man in passion, SHOULD NOT ride a mad horse.

After much spilling of the most sacred and deep secrets, I shall shut my pie hole and leave you to the twisters of thoughts that roams through your mind. I shall not confirm nor deny your doubts, I shall however ask of you to reason with the storms, to wise up and see beyond the flashy exterior of life; After all, I'm still the madman who is raving all over the place.

The Ravings Of A Madman : Part 1

It's almost believed that a man can be measured by the yields of his success, his conquests and his triumphs, however, the words I bare within my brains totally negate these allegations. I found within my journey through out life that some pearls of “wisdom” are so falsely claimed to be true... within the narrow understanding of mankind of all things that goes around, all ideals seems to be true, however the world dynamics have changed since sometime now... and believe me that narrow concept of life is no longer working.

Maybe I'm just a madman who is raving all over the place, however, discussing logic is somewhat illogical, it is all about comprehension of planes of thinking.... I might have lost you in the last few words however, it might get a little clearer within the upcoming few lines just bare with me. Within every inch of material that exists around you there is a level of detail to the naked eye, however, look closer, much closer, and another level of details just pop ups, look closer and you will find much more details, and hence forth, most of us just sees the world with just naked eyes, and understand logic just on the beginning of it's shallow shells.

It has been more than a quarter of a century since I existed within these walls, roaming for answers and conclusions, so neck deep that I forgot all about the questions that really matter, I was lost truly and deeply drowned into the madness that keeps us all in line. “When life hands you lemon, you make lemonade”.... what a bunch of crap, imagine your life if you just drank lemonade!!! So what is the real deal here? Exploiting situations or just plain resource usage, a kind of use-what-you-get thing ... true wisdom lies within the deep crusts of life, within it's most inner core, and again the narrow kind of thinking is just not helping, suppose that I want to sell the lemon and get something else !!!!

“Know your limitations”, the only thing that comes through my mind when I hear those words, is a sudden and compelling urge to punch the mouth where these words came out, and then , just then maybe whoever is using those words will stop using them in fear of getting his jaws broken and will know their limitations!!! Sky high should be your thoughts domain and never let any limited person tell otherwise. Most of us understand limitations as the most upper limits that his/hers physical, psychological, emotional, and intelligence capabilities, again I 'll be the party pooper and try to convince you otherwise, from what I see , each and every human capability or ability can be enhanced, fine tuned, upgraded if the word may serve my purpose here. It is given that certain capabilities will be easier to enhance than others for each individual, some may even come in natural as a result of an certain environment or maybe God given gifts - oh yes, I used the big words here and I ain't afraid- none-the-less, others can be achieved and developed to the extent of mastering by training. The only difference between someone who can and someone who can not is merely a question of drive to a goal, let me clarify a little more, someone who can is simply someone who has enough reasons and will power to reach what he/she wants to reach. To sum up those lengthly words, “limitations” is the barriers that we put for ourselves and we accept and surrender to them, and again do not let anyone stop you from becoming what you want, that also includes yourself.

“Life is unfair”, big question mark should be placed here, what the heck? What does fairness have to do with anything? Now let's explore a little bit on the very idea of the “fair”. Typically, humans thinks that they all ought to have the same amount of chances, abilities, and rights; so ideally that is the “fairness” of life is all about. So does fairness really exists? Rhetorical question of course, NO people, it does NOT exist, the idea of fairness is just ridiculous if not hilarious. Let me explain why I think that is, equality suggests that forces pulling against and with are the same, and simple physics tells us that if that happens, we would have a system equilibrium, in other words, a system that is not moving, does not twist and turn; and that just is not life, it will be boring as hell if life was always in a status quo. Life is not fair, yes, and guess what, it will always be because inequality is the status of things around, and that will never change, so grow a pair and deal with it, sucker!! So Logically there is nothing to support the claim that life will ever be fair, so why oh why does people hope it gets someday? Truth is that humans in their infinite wisdom invented something called “denial”, denial helps get through the days, get out the bed in the morning, live and produce and be that same old mold that humans has been since the beginning of time, we lie to ourselves because we do not want to face the truth, we know that things won't get better, and yet we still hope for the better tomorrow!! Weird hah? So if we should not rely on false hopes and beliefs, what should we do? One conclusion that I have drawn over the years of me breathing, is just make and take the best of it; simple enough, enjoy the time, push the envelope, explore the edge of things, these are thrills that will bring joy into your life, not false hope.

At the end, I sit on my comfy chair at the top of the world and judge, how ironic??!! You should have realized by now that no one should have that kind of power over you, but as a lost soul you are, you seek approval, you seek guidance, you seek assurance that what you are doing is right; do not do that anymore if you understood, I'm no wise man, I 'm no judge, and I'm no assurance, I'm however a madman who is raving all over the place.